Dr. Pepper and chocolate. Some of my most favorite things in the world. Often put together, often used as coping.
It doesn't work very well.
You may use coffee. Or coke. It may be snickers, or swedish fish. But in the end, it means the same thing.
"I don't want to deal with such-and-such problem, so I'm going to ignore it and drink or eat something I do enjoy and can control."
Yeah, still doesn't work very well. I don't know about you, but it just makes me want more, and doesn't solve anything for me.
"Well, Mana, what does work?"
Prayers.
Prayer seems to have a very calming effect for me. I know that God is listening, and is watching over me. No, I don't pray as often as I should. But when I do, it makes me feel so much better. And I know they get answered. I have been praying that somehow, some way, my husband and I will be able to make rent next month.
My husbands last check from his recent job he lost was just enough to cover it. That is one stress checked off.
Another prayer I say very often is for help to overcome my issues, my fear, my guilt, my shame, everything associated with being a survivor, and support so that I don't have to do it alone.
I was recently able to tell my mom. I think I am finally ready to go to a therapist. I started this blog. It is taking longer than I want it, and I am doing things I wasn't okay with for a very long time. But I now can face it, and finally take care of it.
Prayers do get answered. They do make you feel better. If you have never prayed, I suggest you try it, to whichever diety you believe in, whether it's The Heavenly Father, God, Jesus, Allah, Jehovah, Buddah, whoever.
Just pray.
So take that Dr. Pepper and that choclate bar and feel better for the moment. Then when you are done, kneel down and say a prayer, and start feeling better for life.
"God didn't promise us days without pain, laughter without sorrow,or sun without rain. But he did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way."
