I know it's been a while. I was on a writing spree, and then I choked. To those that were reading my story and listening to my insights, I'm sorry. I got scared. Plain and simple. Knowing that He had the link to my blog and had read what I had written previously and would most likely read more if I wrote more scared me. I froze. I had a lot to say, but I felt trapped. I still kind of do. But I'm going on a limb here. I have decided, so what if He reads it? I am entitled to my emotions, thoughts and opinions. It shouldn't matter that He might be reading what I'm saying...
The thing is though, it does.
Can you blame me?
Because, technically, these are His secrets, His stories, too.
Now, I try to not be one to step on other people's privacy. But I am human. It happens. I can't be perfect.
So is this an invasion of His privacy? He may think it is.
Is this an invasion of my privacy? Knowing He can read what I say, what I think?
We are all only human, after all. Who knows?
But I won't let it hinder me. I can't. If I do, I'll just do what I've always done. I'll hide it and run. Silently. I am tired of running from this. I'm tired of hiding from those I care about. I don't want to anymore.
So. You. Go ahead and read on. I will not hide anymore. I will not run. It's time for me to face my demons. And if that means you read everything I have to say, then fine. I guess it's better that you know. So if you really are trying to become a better person, maybe I can help you see who you were, so you don't become that person ever again. And I can finally free myself from this shadow that shades the most brilliant part of sun from my life.
This is a new year, a new phase in life. And I am determined to come out on top.
